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Phenomenology: Part 1

So I found myself in the presence of Yog Stothoth once again. The first time this happened I did not understand what a great honor it was. Yog Sothoth was pleased with me, so I was granted an audience. Again in the dard dimension as one of the constantly revolving spheres in teh great wheel that is Yog Sothoth.. Yog Sothoth spoke to me, or more accurately, he invoked the feelings and emotions. and I supplied the words: "My Necromancer, I am pleased with you, it is time for me to reveal more to you. Your totem animal is the crow" I am not a big fan of crows, with their constant cawing. I thought me being totally blind the bat would be a better choice. You know: like blind as a bat, or ears like a bat. As I was thinking these thoughts a shiver went through me, and I got the following instructions: "No the crows! It is best you start making friends with them soon." My god continued: "You have gained in power and intelligence, which shall open new pos...

Intellectual Intuition: Part 4

Jai was silent on the drive to the cemetery; she was definitely a woman on a mission. I really did not have any idea where we were going, until she told me we were heading towards a Ghost Town by the name of "Hellwater" . Something to do with the water in the area containing a lot of sulfur, thus the name. We drove for several hours, I knew it must be dark by the time we arrived, because we had not left till the mid-afternoon. Jai was still moving with the silent purpose, despite my chatty attempts. She led me to the cemetery, which was behind the abandon church of the town. Then all of a sudden she seemed to snap out of her silence. telling me in a confidential tone: "We have been followed, so I want you to dig while I circle back on the pursuers." The idea of digging was totally unattractive to me. I have long lacquered nails, and have not held a shovel since I was a little girl in the sandbox. Jai seemed amused at my lack of digging skills, and gave me some...

Intellectual Intuition: Part 3

Anyhow, Jai set up the meeting between us, and the members of The Order of the New Dawn. I dressed for the occasion in a black dress longer than my usual hem, it had a knee length instead of my usual mid thigh hem, but had a thigh high slit up the side. I like to show off, you know. Also wore nylns patient leather pumps and my silver framed dark glasses. I wear silver jewelry, not that I have ever seen a color. I pick my colors from emotional associations that they have for me. Silver puts me in mind of the Moon, and femininity, the Sun seems masculine to me. Weird, but it works. While I was going for sexy and mysterious Jai was going for official, and businesslike. She wore a dark blue skirt suit with pinstripes, and also wore black patient leather shoes, you know, so we could be in solidarity. I must admit we spent more time on how we dressed than what we were going to say at the meeting, but we did not know how it would go. Anyhow, you can only make a first impression once. W...

Intellectual Intuition: Part 2

Jai came inside with me. I was still in shock bout what had happened. I made coffee for us, doing something seemed to calm me. When the coffee was down we sat down to talk. Jai started the conversation: "When I was young my Grandfather used to tell me about his Grandfather, who was a witch doctor, or obeah man in Mississippi, the family mover to Los Angeles when my Grandfather was young. I loved the stories of magic. and voodoo he uses to tell. I was reminded of those long forgotten stories of my youth when I investigated you, I realized magic was in my blood, so I took steps to show my willingness to join up." My shock and astonishment was wearing off. I also realized this was the longest conversation I had ever had with Jai. I am not counting the interviews around the Hartman affair when I came into the possession of the Monas Stone. I said in an uncertain manner: "I appreciate the help, but I thought you hated me?" I could hear the amusement in h...

Intellectual Intuition: Part 1

Once upon a time while I was luxuriating in my bubble bath an eldritch beast appeared. I always wanted to start a paper with "Once upon a time" so I decided this was my opportunity. Anyhow, I was luxuriating in my bubble bath with a scented candle, I found myself floating in the dark dimension summoned by one of the Hounds of Tindalos. This may sound strange,but I was getting used to these summons to the dark dimension. When the Great Old Ones want to reach you they don't text or call. Anyhow, this particular Hound was one I knew, his name was Rak. And he was always very gentle with me. I kind of like him, not that I had warm, fuzzy, bunny feelings for him, well maybe sometimes. I guess I am an eldritch animal lover, or better a lover of eldritch animals. The Hounds appear as bat-like creatures with dog faces. Of course, this is just an analogy that human minds make. The entities that dwell in the dark dimension are more like thoughts in a mind than physical beings. ...

Molyneaux's Problem: Part 2

I could tell Steve was irritated with me, when I called him. He wanted the information, but was not thrilled by my conditions. That I wanted him to take me out to dinner. It was probably not that I wanted dinner that irritated him, so much as my insisting it be to a nice place, so I could dress up, I also insisted he wear a tie, and jacket. I mean, I deserved this, after all had to go through to get this information. Anyhow, I wore nylons, heels, a black skirt, and a red top. Red was becoming my favorite color. Not that I have ever seen a color, but the associations red has with sex, danger, and attention attracted me. I was also told the color red is somehow associated with China, I am of Chinese ancestry, so I considered that a bonus. Anyhow, Steve arrived on time, which I appreciated. When you are blind you must stay organized, and like the people you deal with to be organized. Steve knew how to navigate me around. I could feel the texture of his blazer as I held his arm,...

Molyneaux's Problem: Part 1

It is hard to say when an adventure begins, what ties a series of events together? So I have to make a choice where to begin this episode in my life. I had received a summons (email) to have a meeting with the Chairmen of the Philosophy Department where I am an associate Professor of Philosophy. The meeting was on a sunny southern California afternoon; a Friday afternoon. So I put on jeans, sneakers, a nice top, and grabbed my straight cane. I am totally blind, no light perception. I also wear dark glasses to cover my cloudy white eyes. It is only a short walk from my apartment to the Los Angeles University where I teach. Cane walking seems to be one of the blind things that sighted people most amazing. While I am not sure how amazing cane walking is, it is considerably different experience than sighted people have walking. There is a definite rhythm to cane walking. At one time I used to imagine myself as a giant living metronome, I should say it is not an unpleasant feeli...

Misery never Ends

It all began with what many might call a religious experience. I would call it "meeting with your God." To briefly explain how I got into this situation, I acquired a gem called the Monas Stone which allows its possessors access to different dimensions of reality. It seems our universe is not the only universe. Reality is like a great wave, our universe is riding the crest of the wave. The easiest way to think about the multiverse is like an F.M. wave. Our universe only exists at the peaks of the wave, it then phases out of existence, and another universe phases into existence, this universe would be Lovecraft's realm of the Elder Race. The cosmos of the Elder Race seems to be an in between or intermediate universe. When it phases out of existence, at the low point of the wave, the dark dimension phases into existence, The is the realm of the Lovecraft Gods: the Great Old Ones. We do not notice these changes except in exceptional circumstances, because we literally ceas...